Thursday, November 20, 2014

It Has Been A MINUTE!

Wow! It's been a while since I posted. It's been a while since I thought a lot about this part of my life! So much has changed since my last post, where do I start?

I would no longer call myself a vegan, hippie, or child anymore. Let me go on.

I'm pregnant!!! My fetus is 3 months old and I'm starting to show and my life has changed so much since I got pregnant, since I found out, and it's only going to continue to change at a rapid rate with the growth and birth of our child. I wasn't planning on the pregnancy obviously at 18 years old with plans for college but my boyfriend and I are both so excited for him.

I also slipped off the wagon. I began struggling again with eating disorder tendencies last winter and began eating unhealthy food with enthusiasm this past summer. Non fruitarian food is freaking good! Icecream, cookies, french fries, pizza, vegan burgers. There's a reason those foods are pretty much universally loved. My hair thinned considerably this summer though too and I can't help but wonder if that wasn't affected at all by my poor diet in the previous months. Wanna see it somewhere around its worst?

Remember how long and thick and nice it was when I was eating lots of healthy living vegan nutrients!? Let me refresh your memory if not.

Since then I cut most of it off and it's looking thicker and better but it's nowhere near as nice as it used to be.

I've been trying hard to eat healthy and also lots of protiens, but admittedly there are still a lot of bad foods in my diet that shouldn't be there for the sake and health of my future kid. I've been thinking a lot lately about how amazing I felt all the time when i ate all raw vegan. It seems pretty normal to think back to a time in my life when I was healthier and happier than ever, at a time in my life when I wake up feeling like I got punched in the gut by a train every day. And also at a time when I'm making a fragile, impressionable little person in my belly and have greater nutritional requirements than I've ever had before. I really wish to teach my child how to live healthy, happy, and fruitfully too. I've been dreaming of going back to a high fruit diet - obviously though, this time including plenty of healthy fats and protiens due to, well, you know. My little person.

From here out this blog is going to be dedicated to the story and struggles of a 18 year old girl learning about pregnancy and childhood in a whole new way as I relearn the art of raw vegan fruitarian veganism.

1 comment:

  1. Oh no! You fell off the wagon.
    Not important, just climb back on :) do what you have to do,
    As I've written, you ARE beautiful, EVERYBODY is. Maybe with the help of your good old friend the banana....
    And for motivation, gonto nutritionfacts watch the video of Dr greger about pregnancy :)
    You will be back! No doubt. Be cool with yourself :)